does it hurt?

I'm a a good lover,
A bad friend
I don't know stories 
That end well

I'm a bad lier,
I can't pretend
I am not falling
When I am

I'm a bad daughter
Conversing short
Scared to have a child
Cause this reverses.

Wanna go somewhere 
where I can stop
So who can tell me

Does it hurt?
When we open to fast
Into this world..
Over and over felt 
How much I needed love
Alone in the dark
I whisper the words:
I'm a good one,
Don't hurt me

I keep secrets
But I cannot speak,
I have powers but I
I have to be weak.
I hate living but
Can't kill myself.
I am a coward
So I attack.

Now I have become
What I had dreamt to be
I am the given
And the damned.
I am what I am.
It's getting worse.
So who can tell,
Why does it hurt?